When I was telling people that I have been over 6 months on the road and that my trip is still not finished, the most common reply was: Wow, that must be so cool. I wish I could do that as well. Although it sounds like a dream job, constantly traveling, the reality is totally different.
I don’t want to write more about how beautiful Southeast Asia is, or how delicious food there is. There are enough blogs where you will find this information. What I really want is to explain that being constantly on the road isn’t always roses and that long-term solo travelling can be depressing as well.
First thing I struggled with was loneliness. Solo travelers, we are always alone. We are actually quite fine with being alone, because we can deal with everything. There are just special moments, when we wish, just like everyone else, to have someone by our side. Someone who would just be there to talk to, smile and do silly things with. We don't need another backpacker who would brag where he has been or some locals, interested only in taking selfies with us. We need someone who would understand, support us and run wild us. And that someone is extremly hard to find.
2. Fear of losing money
Another thing, we need to deal with, is to constantly lose money. In reality, we fear losing everything, but money plays an important role, as it allows us to survive and have a decent living.
This fear is even bigger, when we are not able to generate passive income during our journey or don't have a high-paying job, waiting for us at home.
We fear, that someday there will be no money left. We fear we will not be able to get a job. We fear that we will stay without everything. Everything that is related to spending money, horrifies us. Consequently we avoid spending too much money and save as much as possible. That's the reality of many backpackers I came across to, including me. Instead of experience everything that travelling offers, we are rejecting it.
I have seen so many travellers, who have become tired after travelling for so long. After 2 or 3 years of being constantly away from home, without a steady place, you get tired. You become tired of changing places, seeing more or less same scenery, eating same food and planning everything yourself. No matter how you like being abroad, there is part of you, which wants to go home, visit your friends and family and sleep in the comfy old bed. When I told locals my story and how sad I was getting by travelling without a purpose, they all advised me to go back home. You look tired, you should go home, was their usual reply.